Showing posts with label always walking home. Show all posts
Showing posts with label always walking home. Show all posts

Thursday, March 21, 2024

Walking / O California (the landscape of my younger days)


"Walking, ideally, is a state in which the mind, the body, and the world are aligned, as though they were three characters finally in conversation together, three notes suddenly making a chord. Walking allows us to be in our bodies and in the world without being made busy by them. It leaves us free to think without being wholly lost in our thoughts. I wasn’t sure whether I was too soon or too late for the purple lupine which can be so spectacular in these headlands, but milkmaids were growing on the shady side of the road on the way to the trail, and they recalled the hillsides of my childhood that first bloomed every year with an extravagance of these white flowers. Black butterflies fluttered around me, tossed along by wind and wings, and they called up another era of my past. Moving on foot seems to make it easier to move in time; the mind wanders from plans to recollections to observations."


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I'm grateful to have been born into and grown up experiencing the landscape of California.  It brought a joy that is still with me all these years since I left, never imagining that I would spend the rest of my life living a thousand miles to the north in Western Washington which has its own beauty but is not my first love.  Eastern Washington does look much the way coastal California did when I was young but only for part of the year, and the Cascade Mountains separate Western and Eastern Washington. Eastern Washington has snow in the winter and extreme heat in the summer, unlike the coastal region of Northern California where I grew up, never far from the Pacific Ocean.  I continue have dreams where I rejoice that I am living near the Pacific Ocean.

Sunday, April 19, 2020

Always walking home / Not alone
















Your feet will bring you to where your heart is.

An áit a bhfuil do chroí is ann a thabharfas do chosa thú. 

(Irish proverb)

The quote came to my attention on April 2, the first day I had the energy to take a walk since the COVID-19 situation brought so much uncertainty to so many.  I've been waiting for the right time to share it.  A few days ago I noticed that my Abutilon had taken the shape of a heart.  Tomorrow is the day R died in 2008.  Last night I dreamed again that I was walking home after having been far from home.  I saw many people that I didn't know but felt I could trust.  There was a young man riding a horse in the same direction I was going.  When I spoke to the young man, the horse disappeared.  The young man told me he was feeling vulnerable and could not say much but that he was a good listener.  I didn't have much to say either, for the same reason.  At the end of the dream, I saw one person I recognized but wasn't sure I could trust her.  I took the risk of telling her about my vulnerability.  After she listened to me for a few moments, I woke up from the dream wondering if I had made a mistake in admitting my vulnerability to her in a way that undermined the strength I do have.





Our hearts are heavy with so many voices silenced by death.  The human heart can only stand so much alone.  We are not alone anymore.

We are people walking home together.



















(The above image, "Family Traveling At Night," was drawn by me in 2005, using my index finger as a "pencil" on my iBookG4 track pad and the Appleworks6 "Painting" function)