Mandala music

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Thank you to my friend, Sue, for bringing Jacob Collier to my attention.

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Tiny Mandala #27 of 53 (Chinese character: to eat)

Emotionally exhausted, with little social energy, and yet my physical energy and creative energy are as good as they have ever been.  Daily yoga practice and good long walks in the September light.

 

Indefinite / Mystery and ambiguity

 

Tiny Mandala #26 of 53

(4 x 4 inches, drawn with non-dominant left hand)

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Daily Tao / 255 – Indefinite

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September

Indefinite

Spring was a time of swaggering declarations.

Reaching autumn, one finds few absolutes.

Life is mystery and ambiguity,

Toward winter, that now seems agreeable and comfortable.

When young, one makes heroic attempts. 

The world will surely bend to our will, we think, 

and we will surely make grand contributions. 

Social injustice will be righted. 

The big questions will be answered.

I once went to see a master writer. 

Long retired, white-haired and fragile, 

she nevertheless evinced a sharp and discerning mind. 

I was a novice writer. 

She had edited hundreds of great authors. 

I peppered her with all my anxieties

and asked her all the questions that my teachers never answered. 

To most of my questions she would only answer, “Yes.” 

She knew all the answers, 

and she knew all the exceptions, 

and she knew the best thing that an older person

could tell a younger person was

“Yes.” Yes, the affirmative. 

Yes, as in keep exploring. 

Yes, as in there are no ultimate answers.

I used to push for an immediate resolution to daily problems. 

Now, I am not so anxious. 

Is science right about things, or is religion? 

Is there good and evil on a metaphysical level? 

Is there one god, or are there many gods, or no gods? 

A hundred answers exist for these questions. 

They are all known, but no one agrees. Today, I think it all very fine. 

Let there be a hundred answers with none of them entirely correct. 

The asking of the question is already enough.

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Not that I am comfortable.  

Or agreeable.  

Things are the way they are.  

How can I be useful, of what service can I be?  

There is something inside me, what can it be? 

-- Vincent van Gogh (1853-1890)

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It follows that I am not writing this book 

out of any sense of objection to what

anyone believes now. 

Beyond all reason is the mystery of love: 

you know we are all equal, 

no one in truth needs any help 

from anyone else, 

no one needs to be told anything

or given anything—and then you 

do the most compassionate act anyway, 

do the best for your brothers and sisters 

that you have in you. 

I'm relaying what was given to me 

when I felt I needed it: 

if I felt that way, 

maybe someone else does, too. 

This is a letter to my brothers and sisters, 

a love note to try to show how, 

when we thought love wasn't working, 

it was working perfectly.

(Thaddeus Golas)

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Tiny mandala #27 of 53, work in progress:

September Dream Mandala / Awe

"... I have heard trees talking, long after the sun has gone down ..."

 Speaking Tree

Some things on this earth are unspeakable: Genealogy of the broken— A shy wind threading leaves after a massacre, Or the smell of coffee and no one there— Some humans say trees are not sentient beings, But they do not understand poetry— Nor can they hear the singing of trees when they are fed by Wind, or water music— Or hear their cries of anguish when they are broken and bereft— Now I am a woman longing to be a tree, planted in a moist, dark earth Between sunrise and sunset— I cannot walk through all realms— I carry a yearning I cannot bear alone in the dark— What shall I do with all this heartache? The deepest-rooted dream of a tree is to walk Even just a little ways, from the place next to the doorway— To the edge of the river of life, and drink— I have heard trees talking, long after the sun has gone down: Imagine what would it be like to dance close together In this land of water and knowledge. . . To drink deep what is undrinkable. Joy Harjo

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Thank you to Beth for bringing this poem to my attention this morning after I took a walk in the woods and found myself thinking about the lives of trees.

Sacred Grief / Gratitude

Just Because

 

"... Yeah I'm a soldier but I don't use a gun ..."

With gratitude to Mavis Staples for this song and to dreaming in the deep south for bringing this to my attention this morning.

With gratitude to Robbie Robertson (1943-2023)

 

Ghost Dance

Crow's brought the message

To the children of the sun

For the return of the buffalo

And for a better day to come

You can kill my body

You can damn my soul

For not believing in your God

And some world down below

You don't stand a chance against my prayers

You don't stand a chance against my love

They outlawed the Ghost Dance

They outlawed the Ghost Dance

But we shall live again, we shall live again

My sister above

But she has red paint

She died at Wounded Knee

Like a Latter-day Saint

You got the big drum in the distance

The blackbird's in the sky

That's a sound that you hear

When the buffalo cry

You don't stand a chance against my prayers

You don't stand a chance against my love

They outlawed the Ghost Dance

They outlawed the Ghost Dance

But we shall live again, we shall live again

We shall live again

Crazy Horse was a mystic (yeah)

He knew the secret of the trance

And Sitting Bull, the great apostle

Of the Ghost Dance

Come on Comanche

Come on Blackfoot

Come on Shoshone

Come on Cheyenne

We shall live again (we shall live again)

We shall live again (we shall live again)

Come on Arapaho

Come on Cherokee

Come on Paiute

Come on Sioux

We shall live again (we shall live again)

You used to do the Ghost Dance

Used to do the Ghost Dance

But we don't sing them kinda songs no more

Robbie Robertson & the Red Road Ensemble

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In April 1969, R bought tickets for us and we drove up to San Francisco to Winterland to attend one of the first concerts ever given by The Band.  We were 19 years old. 

A Tuesday Afternoon In the Summer of 1968 Revisited

What love has given to us, no one can take away.

(paraphrased lyrics from Bob Dylan)

Hiroshima Day 2023

 

Sadako

Orizuru and Synchronicity

The wall-to-wall carpet that I bought in 2012 had been vacuumed regularly but had never been cleaned.  It didn't appear horribly dirty, but something prompted me to have it cleaned professionally a few days ago.  When the carpet cleaning technician arrived, he announced that he had cleaned my carpet once before.  He appeared to be in his 50s.  I can't say that I recognized him.  My rough guess is that he cleaned my carpet at least 20 years ago because I can only recall having someone clean my carpet one or two other times since I moved here in 1984.  He did a fine job.

In order to have my carpet cleaned, I had to move some furniture and numerous other belongings into my kitchen, my hall closet and out onto my porch, leaving much more empty floor space than I usually have.  It occurred to me that it would be a good time to let go of some of those belongings and free up floor space.  Then it occurred to me that, while I was at it, I could let go of other belongings and free up table and shelf surfaces.  

Among what I let go of were origami that were scattered around my living room on shelves and tables.  

This morning I was given the tiniest origami I have ever seen.  Orizuru.