On December 24, I completed my 28th mandala. According to my book on Chinese calligraphy, the character at the center of my mandala signifies "family name." My family of origin has had numerous broken places in it for many generations. Those broken places played out again in my generation and the two generations that follow mine.
My mandala is a vision of my family of origin being healed, resulting in a new family name that reflects the healing of who-knows-how-many generations of brokenness. At this point, I cannot imagine how that would happen, but I want to see it as possible.
As of today, I deactivated my Facebook page in hopes of alleviating some of the pain that I experience in connection with my family. I have not posted on Facebook for over a month now and have several other ways to keep in touch with friends and family I am close to, many of whom are not on Facebook.
I am grateful for the healing that I have experienced within in connection with my family of origin, much of it in connection with having a family of choice. There is much less pain for me than there used to be. It is a gradual process. Facebook has not been contributing to healing in my family of origin.
