Thursday, September 12, 2019
James Baldwin and Ocean Vuong / Leah Siegel covering Buckley covering Buckley / Learning Spanish / NAMI class
Ocean Vuong's book On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous was brought to my attention in the last month or so, and I put a hold on a copy at our public library. I found the book to be extraordinary as well as difficult and worth the difficulty. Ocean Vuong, like Toni Morrison, took me to places I've never been before (but not as "a tour guide to pre-made worlds" but as a "world maker," to use Ocean Vuong's words from the interview) and changed the way I see the world. Before finishing the book, I took a 50-minute break to listen to Ocean Vuong and Jacqueline Woodson. Previously, while reading the book, I had listened to several other interviews with Ocean Vuong in which he reminded me of a young Bob Dylan. In the above Strand Bookstore interview, Ocean Vuong lights a James Baldwin votive candle before the interview begins, in honor of James Baldwin's illuminating presence. In that moment, I realized that what I was perceiving as a similarity to Bob Dylan was actually a similarity to James Baldwin. Bob Dylan's work and way of being in the world were strongly influenced by James Baldwin. That is what I was seeing in Ocean Vuong. James Baldwin lives on through his literary descendants. Ocean Vuong is one of the most recent in that literary family tree.
Some quotes from Ocean Vuong:
"... the merciful light in the midst of all this darkness ..." (from the interview)
"Let no one mistake us for the fruit of violence--but that violence, having passed through the fruit, failed to spoil it." (p. 231, On Earth We're Briefly Gorgeous)
This morning, I discovered this version of "Once I Was A Soldier" by Leah Siegel and wanted to share it. I've never heard a woman sing that song before.
Beginning on September 4, I made a commitment to learn to speak Spanish, building on two years of Spanish in high school (escuela secundaria) 52 years ago. There is a Spanish Conversation group that meets weekly at our local Senior Center around a table in a small meeting room and is facilitated by an engaging woman in her 60s from Mexico. It is immersion in Spanish rather than a formal class. I speak like a baby and that's okay!
In addition, I signed up for a evening class offered by our local branch of NAMI (National Alliance on Mental Illness). The class is for families and friends of people who suffer from mental illness and meets two nights a week for six weeks. My hope is to learn how to take care of myself in the numerous encounters I have regularly with people who suffer from mental illnesses and to learn how I can be supportive of those who suffer from mental illnesses. Once again, there are no easy answers, and I am open to learning what I can.
The next six weeks will be full, with not much time for posting. I will be reading your blogs, sending love as always.
Here's a volunteer Mimulus that appeared on my porch:
Saturday, September 7, 2019
Rep. Debra Lekanoff -- 40th Legislative District of Washington State
The above is from a message sent through the U.S. mail to all those who live in the 40th Legislative District.
Listen to Rep. Debra Lekanoff here.
Our Legislative District is fortunate to have Debra Lekanoff representing us. There is cause for hope.
Thursday, September 5, 2019
Monday, September 2, 2019
Never Give Up / Listening to Three Women On Labor Day 2019
When I was in my late teens in 1969, I worked for the telephone company in California as a long distance operator for AT&T before dropping out of college. In my early 20s, I was a letter carrier in California and belonged to the Postal Workers Union. I spent one year working in a factory that made pacemakers in Massachusetts and three years here in Bellingham, Washington, as an industrial sewing machine operator, first in a union shop as a member of the International Garment Workers Union, then in a shop where I sewed backpacks together, and finally in a sailmaker's loft where I sewed sails, spinnakers, and boat covers. Because I am tall, I developed neck and back problems from bending over to work on industrial sewing machines. When I was 30, I returned to college to finish a degree in English Literature and Studio Art and then found myself unemployable in our small college town until I forced myself to learn to type and then became a medical transcriptionist at the local hospital. Through most of my working life, I was a production worker, working hard for only modest compensation. I am proud of the work I did. Watching "Union Maids" is an emotionally powerful and empowering experience.
(1970 -- telephone operators)
Sunday, September 1, 2019
Never Give Up: "... to dance close together / In this land of water and knowledge ..."
Speaking Tree
Some things on this earth are unspeakable:
Genealogy of the broken—
A shy wind threading leaves after a massacre,
Or the smell of coffee and no one there—
Some humans say trees are not sentient beings,
But they do not understand poetry—
Nor can they hear the singing of trees when they are fed by
Wind, or water music—
Or hear their cries of anguish when they are broken and bereft—
Now I am a woman longing to be a tree, planted in a moist, dark earth
Between sunrise and sunset—
I cannot walk through all realms—
I carry a yearning I cannot bear alone in the dark—
What shall I do with all this heartache?
The deepest-rooted dream of a tree is to walk
Even just a little ways, from the place next to the doorway—
To the edge of the river of life, and drink—
I have heard trees talking, long after the sun has gone down:
Imagine what would it be like to dance close together
In this land of water and knowledge. . .
To drink deep what is undrinkable.
Joy Harjo
(thanks to beth for bringing Joy Harjo's poem to my attention)
(thanks to S Alexander for posting her videos on YouTube)
Wednesday, August 28, 2019
Sunday, August 18, 2019
Further thoughts this morning / "Somebody, after all, had to make a start ..." (Sophie Scholl in 1943)
In the words of Sophie Scholl, "Somebody, after all, had to make a start. What we wrote and said is also believed by many others. They just don't dare express themselves as we have."
After posting on my blog earlier this morning about what Never Again Action experienced in Rhode Island and remaining unsettled, an image came to me of a small group of German people gathering at the entrance to Buchenwald one summer evening in 1943 to nonviolently protest what they could not ignore, with the goal of blocking any employees who attempted to enter. I see the Nazis who ran the camp mobilize immediately to threaten the lives of the people at the gate. I see a man in a truck attempt to intimidate the nonviolent protestors by driving forward in an aggressive move that could result in serious injury to them. When they don't disperse, the Nazis in the towers kill them. The momentum of the Nazi mentality continues to build until World War II ends in 1945, and it never completely dies.
I became aware of Sophie Scholl and the White Rose only recently. To my mind, she and her young friends did the equivalent of protesting at the gates of Buchenwald. She and her brother Hans and and another student, Christoph Probst, were beheaded by the Nazis for "treason."
On the day that the three young protestors died, Else Gebel, Sophie's cell mate, has stated that Sophie said, "It is such a splendid sunny day, and I have to go. But how many have to die on the battlefield in these days, how many young, promising lives. What does my death matter if by our act thousands are warned and alerted. Among the student body there will certainly be a revolt."
When I look at the photo of Sophie Scholl, I am reminded of this photo of Greta Thunberg.
"All the goodness and the heroisms will rise up again, then be cut down again and rise up. It isn't that the evil things wins -- it never will -- but that it doesn't die." (John Steinbeck)
There is no action any one of us can take that is too small to matter. There is no action that is too small to matter when we join together.
I am reminded of the words of Toni Morrison,
“This is the time for every artist in every genre to do what he or she does loudly and consistently. It doesn't matter to me what your position is. You've got to keep asserting the complexity and the originality of life, and the multiplicity of it, and the facets of it. This is about being a complex human being in the world, not about finding a villain. This is no time for anything else than the best that you've got.”
A message I received early this morning from Starcross Community in Sonoma County, California
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Friday, August 16, 2019
Linda Rees: Tapestry Weaver
One of the first people I met when I moved to Bellingham, Washington, was Linda Rees. She and her family lived several houses down the street from where I first lived in Bellingham. Not knowing that she was my neighbor, I bought one of her early tapestries. You can see that tapestry and read the story connected with it here.
Since last spring a small group of her friends in conjunction with the Whatcom Weaver's Guild have been working together so that Linda's tapestries can be featured by the Whatcom Weaver's Guild in the Wool Room at the Northwest Washington Fair and then at the Jansen Art Center, both in Lynden, Washington. These photos were taken by one of Linda's friends who took her to the fair to see her tapestries exhibited. In the photograph with Linda is Carol Berry, the current president of the Whatcom Weaver's Guild, who did a great deal of footwork to make it possible for Linda's work to be shown at the fair and the Jansen Art Center.
Linda began weaving tapestries 50 years ago, the year her daughter was born. For most of those 50 years, she woke up early in order to weave, including the years when she had full-time employment. In the past few years, she found it more and more difficult to figure out how to warp the loom herself, and friends who weave stepped in to do that for her. In the past year, it became clear that her cognitive difficulties had increased to the point that she needed to move to an assisted living residence, and this past spring she moved to a memory care residence. Although she finds most activities of daily living to be challenging, her passion for tapestry weaving and her enjoyment of family and friends is intact. Her sense of humor is delightful. She laughs heartily. She has always been aware of and upset by the troubles in the world and until the past few years always held a volunteer position in whichever community she was living in, wanting to do what she could to make a positive difference in the world.
Her tapestries will be featured at and for sale through the Jansen Art Center, beginning in September, if anyone is interested in purchasing one of her beautiful tapestries.
Thursday, August 15, 2019
"These are hard won lessons spoken by people who have been there and are not crushed."
(Because I didn't have time to sit down and listen in one sitting, I listened over several days.)
Labels:
"not crushed",
Claudia Brodsky,
Cornell University,
Home,
Toni Morrison
Tuesday, August 6, 2019
Sunday, August 4, 2019
"... so we can change the world ..."
The volunteers who organized the Farmworkers March for Dignity arrived at the designated meeting placed before 4 a.m. With sunrise approaching at 5:47, the marchers gathered near the U.S. Customs and Border Protection building in Ferndale, WA, for a brief ceremony and mística*.
There was a reading of the United Farm Workers Prayer:
Show me the suffering of the most miserable, so I may know my people’s plight.
Free me to pray for others, for you are present in every person.
Help me to take responsibility for my own life, so that I can be free at last.
Grant me courage to serve others, for in service there is true life.
Give me honesty and patience, so that I can work with other workers.
Bring forth song and celebration, so that the Spirit will be alive among us.
Let the Spirit flourish and grow, so that we will never tire of the struggle.
Let us remember those who have died for justice, for they have given us life.
Help us love even those who hate us, so we can change the world.
Amen.
Free me to pray for others, for you are present in every person.
Help me to take responsibility for my own life, so that I can be free at last.
Grant me courage to serve others, for in service there is true life.
Give me honesty and patience, so that I can work with other workers.
Bring forth song and celebration, so that the Spirit will be alive among us.
Let the Spirit flourish and grow, so that we will never tire of the struggle.
Let us remember those who have died for justice, for they have given us life.
Help us love even those who hate us, so we can change the world.
Amen.
Following that, a young woman carried what I would call a smudge pot within and throughout the circle of people, after which one person sang and then everyone joined in the singing of this song:
We were instructed to form a single line so that we could walk safely on the country roads which have very little shoulder. In the small crowd of all ages which then moved into single line, there was at least one toddler, carried by his mother. At 1.6 miles was the first rest stop, which had been set up outside at the side of the two-lane country road. There was a table with breakfast option of a chorizo/egg burrito or a vegan burrito), with donations accepted. Extraordinary volunteer effort goes into organizing a march of this kind. There were medics and a portable restroom which moved from rest stop to rest stop.
At the first rest stop, a tiny boy walked tentatively, full of curiosity, as his mother watched closely over him and the adults stood eating their burritos and talking quietly in the early morning light of rural Whatcom County.
*a ceremony used by movements in Latin America to ground and express their work through spiritual, artistic, and cultural traditions.
"We believe that another world is possible ..."
From Community to Community:
"Join farmworker leaders from Community to Community (C2C) and Familias Unidas por la Justicia (FUJ) in an historic march in rural Whatcom County. The march starts with a sunrise ceremony and mística at Customs and Border Patrol facility in Ferndale, and will proceed past several worksites where H2A workers have been contracted. Then march south on Meridian to Bakerview Rd in Bellingham.
This will be a day long reflection on a day in the life of a farmworker; from the time they start work until their day ends. Walk with us on country roads past acres of raspberry and blueberry fields where the fresh berries that are stocked on your grocery shelves are harvested. See the key component of the local agricultural economy, view corporate and NON-organic mono-agriculture fields and reflect on climate change, a contracted captive labor force, our local food system, community building and labor issues in Whatcom County from a farmworker perspective. We will end around 3pm with our vision of a healthy food system, fair and good for workers and eaters; at C2C's Jardín de Agroecología on Bakerview with a vigil, food and celebration, speakers, and music."
Saturday, August 3, 2019
"... Made up my mind and I won't turn around ..." (Mavis Staples in Dublin on June 23, 2019)

A view of Lake Whatcom from Lake Whatcom Boulevard at around 8:00 a.m. on August 2, 2019.
Eye shield after cataract surgery on July 30, 2019. The eye shield was removed at the ophthalmologist's office on the day after surgery, but I have to put it back on at night for a week after the surgery as well as put drops in my eyes daily for a month.

Wildflower seed mix blooming on my porch.
My father's Norwegian / English / German mother and my mother's German / English / Irish mother.
Oboe turns 14 years old in August.
It's good to be able to read your blogs again now that the cataracts in my right eye have been removed. Thank you for visiting my blog and for your kind thoughts while I was away.
Wednesday, July 24, 2019
Hope to be blogging again soon
Due to a debilitating cold that began on July 4 and a lower back strain at the same time and limited ability to read and write due to a cataract in my right eye and an inadequate reading prescription for my left eye, it's been several weeks since I posted here or commented at anyone's blog. I haven't been able to keep up with my blog reading. My cataract surgery has finally been scheduled for next Tuesday. I had to cancel it a first time in February, again in May, and then in early July until the cold had run its course. It will be a relief to be able to see clearly again and rejoin our community of bloggers.
Sending love to all in the meantime.
Sending love to all in the meantime.
Thursday, July 4, 2019
Reading An Extraordinary Book On Interdependence Day 2019
Page 327
"... Even a wounded world is feeding us. Even a wounded world holds us, giving us moments of wonder and joy. I choose joy over despair. Not because I have my head in the sand, but because joy is what the earth gives me daily and I must return the gift ..."
Page 377
"... I throw myself on the ground, pounding my firsts and grieving the assault on my medicine woods. I don't know how to defeat the monster. I have no arsenal of weapons, no legions of fighters like those who followed Nanabozho into battle. I am not a warrior. I was raised by Strawberries, who even now are budding at my feet. Amid the Violets. And Yarrow. And Asters and Goldenrod that are just emerging, and the blades of Sweetgrass shining in the sun. In that moment, I know that I am not alone. I lie in the meadow surrounded by the legions who do stand with me. I may not know what to do, but they do, giving of their medicine gifts as they always do, to sustain the world. We are not powerless against the Windigo, they say. Remember that we already have everything we need. And so -- we conspire ..."
A reading from Braiding Sweetgrass:
Wednesday, July 3, 2019
Mandala #43: Hansa (Swan) for Kevin
Mandala #43's ground is a letter that my artist and musician friend, Kevin, signed on June 27, 1989, when he was still able to use a typewriter. He had been diagnosed with ALS a few years earlier and wanted his letter to be sent to his friends and loved ones after his death. As the ALS progressed, his speech could be understood only by the one closest to him. He died on June 25, 1991. It was only after my friend, Deven (Kevin's wife) died unexpectedly this last February that I realized Kevin's major role in leading me to do a series of mandalas in recent years. His final paintings were monumental mandalas. Kevin and Deven were unwavering in their enthusiasm for my art work during a time when I felt inadequate and uncertain and lost in so many ways.
My goal once again this year is to complete 12 mandalas. My first mandala was for Deven. Now it is July, and my second mandala is for Kevin.
Meditation on Mother Earth:
The Cart The strap that holds the cart in rein Has been let loose by wearing thin By wearing thin, by biting through The shift in power leans to you And the cart is on a wheel I've wept with joy for the things I've done And I've wept as hard for what I left undone For what I left undone For what I couldn't deem mine For what I thought was yours And so I drew the line And the cart is on a wheel And the wheel is on a hill I heard someone fall I saw another one flail I saw an arm dig deep Where there was no rail Well there is no rail And there's no 'because' Though the body be strong The Spirit is law And the cart is on a wheel And the wheel is on a hill And the hill is shifting sand And inside these laws we stand. If we are lives and souls to keep If we are Love, I hope we do not sleep I hope we do not sleep I hope we stay our ground Hold fast to the Mother as she turns us 'round. 'Cause the cart is on a wheel And the wheel is on a hill And the hill is shifting sand And inside these laws we stand. Hold fast to the Mother...hold fast.
(Song and lyrics by Ferron)
Friday, June 28, 2019
"These Are The Words" / Patti Smith song from 2018 written at the request of Wim Wenders
Awake everyone, the dawn has come
Life is streaming from the sun
A garden blessed, the bird that sings
Nature gives us everything
Awake everyone, the time has come
To mend, to tend, our common home
To give our thanks, sow our seeds
Extend the hand to those in need
When the soul yearns for love
It comes flowing from above
Mercy, hope, humility
These are the words to live by every day
Walls will crumble, we arise
To work as one, abide, provide
Mercy, hope, humility
These are the words we whisper in our sleep
When in doubt the nights are long
Wear the smile, wear the sun
To comfort us when alone
Holding your heart, love will come
Walls will crumble as we abide
Restore the house, we shall provide
Love, compassion, unity
These are the words to live by every day
Awake everyone, the time has come
Life is streaming from the sun
Mercy, hope, humanity
These are the words
These are the words
These are the words
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qsTDcF7zKdY
Saturday, June 15, 2019
Jingle Dress Dance / All of us who live in the Americas are living in Indian Country / Whatcom means "noisy water"
The Google doodle today celebrates the Jingle Dress Dance. On my way home this morning, traffic was stopped for Whatcom County road repairs. I took this photo:
Watch the Jingle Dress Dance:
Learn about the Jingle Dress tradition:
Friday, June 14, 2019
Tall Tales / Stories That Could Be True / "... the circus is in town ...) / All the light
We phantoms are assembled at the end of the Rolling Thunder tour.
We started out
trying to recover America.
We discovered a
certain amount of truth about ourselves.
Old friends who
thought their loves had been lost were able to get together and, uh,
face each other eye to eye and sing over an electrical microphone to
please the desires of myriad young yearners who had been seeking some
kind of union and community and saw therein an image of that
community.
…
You who saw it all
or saw flashes or fragments, take from us some example, try and get
yourselves together, clean up your act, find your community, pick up
on some kind of redemption of your own consciousness, become more
mindful of your own friends, your own work, your own proper
meditation, your own proper art, your own beauty. Go out and make it
for your own eternity.
(am's note: Allen
Ginsberg is shown speaking these words at the end of the film. He then bows in the Buddhist manner)
Click to read this:
(am's note: Now, in 2019, it's 243 years since 1776. My income doesn't allow for me to subscribe to Netflix. I am grateful to a friend who made it possible for me to watch "Rolling Thunder Revue: A Bob Dylan Story")
A Ritual to Read to Each Other
If you don't know the kind of person I am
and I don't know the kind of person you are
a pattern that others made may prevail in the world
and following the wrong god home we may miss our star.
For there is many a small betrayal in the mind,
a shrug that lets the fragile sequence break
sending with shouts the horrible errors of childhood
storming out to play through the broken dike.
And as elephants parade holding each elephant's tail,
but if one wanders the circus won't find the park,
I call it cruel and maybe the root of all cruelty
to know what occurs but not recognize the fact.
And so I appeal to a voice, to something shadowy,
a remote important region in all who talk:
though we could fool each other, we should consider—
lest the parade of our mutual life get lost in the dark.
For it is important that awake people be awake,
or a breaking line may discourage them back to sleep;
the signals we give — yes or no, or maybe —
should be clear: the darkness around us is deep.
A view of our beautiful earth and our beautiful sky from my porch, and then there is:
"All The Light We Cannot See."
Monday, June 10, 2019
Sunday, June 2, 2019
Inspired by 37 Paddington and Ellamae Simmons
Wide-eyed
And listening,
I walk.
Intent.
Looking at everything.
Rarely understanding anything.
Hey world:
You are a puzzle.
With no piece in place.
Every day I bring my own puzzle piece
With me
As I walk
As I wait
As I work with friends on a project that will culminate in two exhibits of selected tapestries from one of our friends who wove for 50 years before losing her ability to weave due to cognitive difficulties, the time I usually have for blogging is limited. Thank you to everyone who responded to my post connected to this year's Memorial Day. I felt so alone in the year the man I loved served as a helicopter mechanic in Vietnam and felt alone for nearly 20 years after the war ended. I spent as much time as I could at the ocean -- one place where I did not feel alone. This year, in large part because of your comments, I know fully that I am not alone, no matter where I am. You are never far from my thoughts. I am grateful to belong to this far-flung community of kindred spirits.
A friend who is staying in Laguna Beach, California, with her husband this week emailed me this ocean scene. It may take several clicks before the video appears:
P.S. Rosemarie -- Our public library secured a copy of Overcome for me. I am just a few chapters into the book. The long and eventful life of Ellamae Simmons is an inspiration. Thank you for making it possible for her story to be told.
Sunday, May 19, 2019
Almost 50 years ago
Deven's sister found this photo in one of Deven's old photo albums and emailed it to me. My R took this photo of me when we were on the island of Oahu during the week of the 4th of July 1970. I flew to Oahu from San Francisco. He flew to Oahu from the war in Vietnam. It was a bittersweet week. My overflowing happiness at being with him in that moment was innocent of what he had already been through in Vietnam and of what was to unfold for both of us (all of us) in the years to come.
From "The Hours"
And...and I remember thinking to myself: "So this is the beginning of happiness..." "This is where it starts!" "And, of course, there'll always be more." Never occurred to me it wasn't the beginning, It was happiness. It was the moment...
Friday, May 17, 2019
Wednesday, May 15, 2019
"This Land Is Your Land" sung by Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings
With gratitude to our friend at 37 Paddington who recommended the Netflix documentary, "Knock Down The House." A friend of mine who subscribes to Netflix had already watched it and was more than happy to watch it a second time with me this morning. Both of us were moved to tears and gratitude for this documentary. The above version of "This Land Is Your Land" is sung during the credits.
Here's another version of "This Land Is Your Land," by Sharon Jones and the Dap-Kings:
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